Here it is, December 27. I am a horrible blogger. To be fair I would like to blog before bed, but my laptop isn’t the best bedside companion.
I came home from my parents house for Thanksgiving and went a little crazy. I bought a new table for the kitchen, a kitchen nook that I wanted since I moved in. The kitchen is strangely laid out. Not a huge kitchen but not small, just, perhaps the space isn’t used well. While an entire kitchen makeover sounds wonderful – yea, thats not going to happen.
My ex was always opposed to anything I liked or wanted. It wasn’t good enough, it was a waste of money, it was…. lets be fair… not what he wanted or his idea; therefore, no good.
I got my kitchen nook the day before my new Washer and Dryer were delivered. Yes, Black Friday got me with a new washer and dryer set. They are wonderful and I love them. I also haven’t received the bill yet and that will be a doozy.
So the kitchen nook went in and 4 days later my dog had jumped all over it- leaving many scratches and gouges in the perfectly new table and bench set. It’s because this boy, yes a 30 year old man child, decided to be ridiculously kind by shoveling my driveway and deck. Sometimes while I was even at home. Now – yes that was very nice of him. But lets be honest. Its a little creepy when you get a picture of your house texted to you because he wanted to tell you he shoveled around your house. Daily.
I told him not to – you see I am not interested in him whatsoever, and I just know this is a – look what a man I am or something – type of thing. It’s very nice but I’m still not interested in this guy.
When I put it together – the destroyed new table set with the text message – I shoveled your driveway yadda yadda – I about lost my shit. My dog was simply protecting his house – trying to get at the strange person too close to the house. He had no idea that the person was shoveling, and the person shoveling probably thought the dog freaking out at him inside the house was funny. Neither of them realizing the damage that they were doing to my BRAND NEW TABLE!
But – I can buy cushions and use a tablecloth right? Damn it though.
So, since I had bought the house I also wanted a mantle and a fireplace. Obviously I’m not getting a wood burning fireplace and chimney installed in my house but I thought of one of those electric fireplaces would be lovely. Some additional heat in the living room, counter space. Its just my idea of cozy. I discovered that there were “Entertainment centers” with the electric fireplace and I almost lost my crap. I researched for weeks. I decided to change the wall my tv was on, essentially rearranging the whole room – but in order to do that I needed a certain size entertainment center to fit a very specific dimension for the walking space in my room. But also – I’d require the TV to be mounted to the wall. Now for the sake of it – lets not think of money – cuz yea, this is all being financed – Happy New Year – Future me can figure out how to pay for it. Don’t you worry.
I found the entertainment center, I got a new TV on a door buster sale, I got it mounted and now the room is almost set. I have my fireplace, my kitchen nook and my new laundry. Whoo.
Though I should have been off of work, leftover vacation I didn’t use, for 2 weeks by now, today I even sat on my work computer from 9a-2p – completing some training that was due before Jan 1st and sending emails.
I need to finish cleaning. I want a clean house for the New Year and I only have a few more days to do it. Tomorrow is no excuses Thursday – except for Yoga, I’m already a month into a 5 month package and I haven’t gone once.
I also installed a backsplash in the kitchen I’ve been dying for. I only need to seal the grout and I should be done.
So – I’m procrastinating organizing/cleaning by doing something else I never do – blog.
To be fair, I’ve been eating many meals at home – and taking a minute to put my dirty dishes in the dishwasher, throw away the trash before I go to bed. Now I need to finish this organizing and make it more of a habit to continue this grown up tidy normal human behavior unlike the filthy disorderly bum I’ve been. Seriously it is fantastic waking up to a space I can walk through. A kitchen counter that isn’t full of shit.
And who knows, maybe if I find the respect for myself, respect for my house – I can find the respect I need to allow someone else into my home- into my life.
As always, time will tell.