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I haven’t been dieting or exercising and shocker… I haven’t been losing weight.
I hate myself in photos. I get anxiety thinking about dating. I’m terrified of becoming diabetic or having a heart attack and lets be real, what is the solution to most of these issues? Lose weight.
I’m 5’9″ and curvey af. But that doesn’t change the fact that I’m almost 250 lbs.
I thought I was fat in high school at 160. I thought I was fat in college at 200. Now I just need to realize I’m god damn obese and need to knock this shit out.
I’ve joined the gym and not gone, I’ve joined weight watchers, lost almost 20 lbs then quit. I started Slim Fast, almost lost 15 then quit. I’ve joined yoga and not gone. I’ve made every excuse and failed to accept reality. Im lazy and without motivation.
So I’ve turned to Nutrisystem. I paid $300 for a month of pre-made meals. I can’t get take-out cuz Ill have a meal at home. I can’t say I’m too tired to cook or without time, they are already made. I can’t whine about not eating lunch since I can bring it with me. How can I fuck this up?
Well. My birthday is this weekend.
But beyond that. I better fucking eat this food for the next damn month and save some money on not eating out.
I just need to buy some veggies. Do-able right?
The portions are TINY. I just spent the weekend with friends and I ate each day til my belly hurt then still said yes to any food put in front of me.
I’m coming off of a food binge so I’m curious how my body will react to the snack size portions.
The year of 37 is almost coming to a close. Less than a week. I decided to keep this blog going, just mention that it’s a year extended.
Let’s see how cranky I can get with this new diet. 🙃