Yesterday was the day. He had his sentencing and then he was supposed to meet with me about the project in the afternoon.
I got so nervous I was shaking but luckily he was delayed and by the time he showed up I just acted like nothing. He made quite a few cocky remarks; for instance, “I was pissed off when I found out what happened” and his reply? “Yea I was too” with a shit eating grin on his face.
He made comments about bidding a job through jail bars and bidding on a house for $20,000 but he lost the bid. He did say however he got the bid for the job.
I told him there was no more fun. He promised that he would do a good job, he’s a hard worker and a good worker and I would see.
I gazed into his eyes for probably longer than I should have but he held my gaze as well. He looked a little rough around the edges but still handsome as can be.
Today I took the chance and asked him if he wanted to come with me walking through the campground. It was more date-y than not but it was still work related. He asked for a 30 minute warning and when I gave it to him he turned me down. Claiming he was too crabby.
He did say Sorry however.
Just being around him gets me fucking giddy. It makes me want to be a better person and I instantly feel pretty again.
I could be reading into it, I could be only hearing and seeing what I want to see. But I just can’t believe I’m making this all up either.
I want to marry him still. I’ve never been this stupidly attracted to anyone.
I know I can’t put all my eggs in a basket. Especially this one. But god damnit there is something just magnetic about him.